its been a long time since ive posted an entry. After i got jumped i didnt want to post anymore cuz id always want to put how i feel but i always felt fucking bad so i just decided to not say anything. aside from my never ending waves of hatred ive been ok. im too busy to think and so thats a plus. school organic chem calc film tutoring lab and now all my free time is spent at band practice. so been haning out alot with sean robert tam some patrick and obviously the other guys in the band. think im gonna go to fright fest soon with some of the guys and tam. JEW has their new cd out and im about to go see them Nov 1 and then go see Chevelle and Vendetta Red the week after. this friday i wanna see the grudge and i wanna get dawn of the dead. i have decided that vodka and beer and drinks are nothing but milk to me. i mean i have to drink a shit load to get messed up and i think id rather just not bother unless theres a party with shitloads of it. what other random thoughts do i have hmm.... im really glad my gf is kool with all my friend we just chill all together its great. playing some video games watching movies just chilling haning out and shit with everyone hella fun with the guys and my gf but someone is missing and im gonna eventually get around to that i just need time. you know lately ive been feeling alot of compassion for people and i wish i could have fifty of me so i can see everyone and comfort everyone. im about to get another car the one i have is so old trans is going on me. thats about all my randomness i can think of right now so until next time.